Dreams

Sorry about not updating, despite me saying I would, but here's something.

So I feel like dreams and nightmares are a matter that have changed for me over time. Whatever they are, memories being pushed out, your mind playing tricks with you, I don't know. But one odd complaint I always here is about nightmares.

Really? At this point, I don't really have nightmares. Even the scariest parts of my dreams don't seem to phase me as much as I'd like anymore. But when I do have something that wakes me in the middle of the night/early morning, I actually wake up with a sigh of relief. I am happy I live in a world where these bad things don't happen, and therefore I guess you could say these are more blessings in disguise more than anything.

But what about good dreams? Those are the ones that people tend to think of when they want to sleep nicely during the night. There are the ones where you can fly, where you have superpowers, where you get to ask out that one cute girl you know and she says yes, maybe share a tender kiss (I mean, that's what I hear, anyways. It's not like I have those or anything. Uuuuhhhhh, just keep reading). But I always felt like these ones are also, in a sense, a little bit depressing. As soon as you wake up, there it is, that sense of reality, that sense that whatever happened in your dream isn't real. Maybe that's fine with some people, but I hate these kinds of dreams.

It's those dreams where good things are happening in a nonsensical wasteland, and while the things around you don't matter, what you're focusing on tends to be great. I'm not talking about "wet dreams" either, it's just sometimes nice to be able to hold someone close to you until your sleepiness wears out to tell you morning has arrived. I know people do all kinds of stuff to make their minds do these kinds of things, and while that sounds nice, it just feels like I'd be battling for control for my mind to be happy.

I don't know, this was just some random hogwash that I felt like talking about. I don't know if people really read these or nots, but it feels better to get some of these things out. Maybe other people share different opinions, and I would like to hear them, but for the time being, I do find my happier dreams as sad nothings that will never happen in my life, things I will never do, and girls I will never kiss. (Er, I mean, again, that's what I hear)